Thursday, August 4, 2016

I Love the Rain

I was born amd raised in the Arizona desert.  The sun is relentless: 360 days a year of miserable scorching, drying,  hardening, blinding sun. 

Just weeks after finishing high school in 1991, on a whim with my (now long since ex-) boyfriend, we moved to Oregon (he had family there).  There was no Internet to research it - the only thing I knew about Oregon was from the month of April in a horse calendar I'd had as a little girl (we do all love horses, after all).  It was a pretty photograph of a bay running in a green field with trees shadowing the forefront of the image.

I got there in July.   It was beautiful.  It was GREEN full of life and vivid colors, (although sunny, but that was a norm to me).  We lived in the country with his family until we could find work and move out (took a few months but we did).  In late August it started raining.  It just rained.  Nothing dramatic too often, just... rain.   Wet.  All the time.  The air was moist and cool.  I was in love (although I could live without the 3 or so weeks of ice and smattering of snow each Winter). The rain stopped sometime in late June the following year.  I missed it and the silvery skies that were a balm to my soul.

I lived in that beautiful, rainy Eden for 20 years until the Universe bade me return to Arizona where I remain still dreaming of the steady, encompassing, comforting rain and shimmering clouds, trying to get my memories to blot out the present horrible, incessant sun and the empty blue sky that is everywhere...

It rains in Arizona briefly during the monsoon season at the end of each summer, but these rains don't speak of comfort and life.  Rather, just as everything in the desert, the rain is violent.  It reviles anything beautiful, delicate, or loving.  It lashes out in downpours and hail to flood, drown, and break whatever it can.  Arizona rain isn't a balm.  It isn't soothing or a comfort bequeathing life to the land.  No, it's a torrential downpour which will kill you if it can from which we must flee and hide.  It is every bit as sinister as the sun.

In my time in Oregon, I met many people who were depressed due to Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).  10 months of rain isn't for everyone, but it is for me.  They needed sun.  I always recommended Arizona to sear away their ailment.   I think I have the same -- but in reverse.  The sun is depressive due to being oppressive.

I love the rain. 

I've been back in Arizona for just over 6 years now.  It feels like a lifetime. When my dad for whom I was caring in Az died 2.5 years ago (the main reason I moved back), I thought I could finally escape the desert and return to my liquid utopia.  The desert doesn't forgive, though.  It doesn't seem to be done with me, yet.

I'm still looking for work to get back up there where my soul still lives.   Need min. 80k a year +health ins. in a permanent position.  I'm a fantastic technical program manager, data analyst and project manager with an MS in Info Mgmt & a PMP who admins an SAP system on MS SQL Server platform. I'm not a DBA, but I have skills.  I've had interviews, but no go.  I get nervous despite practicing.  There always seems to be someone who meshes better and I don't make it in all the way.  I'm too geeky often times -oddly enough.  Too much of a comedienne for my own good.  But I like to laugh and play while I work!  Or I tone down and then I make no impression, or something, I guess (I've asked for feedback - I'm always told I was fine, but someone else was a better fit).  

The right thing will happen when it's supposed to, I just wish it would hurry. .. but not in the Winter.  I actually hate snow more than sun and the thought if having to move aka drive through those snowy mountain passes is terrifying.  I don't like to travel (that rules out consulting gigs).

But I'm not really desperate.  I have a great job I like most of the time with a lot of flexibility and benefits (telecommuting isn't one of them, though, so I can't move away), I have a beautiful little home.  I have my love and my life (my husband) beside me. We have our sweet dog, food and air conditioning.  Life is good; I'm actually not complaining.  I just miss the steady rain, the green everywhere, and being coddled and bouyed by the trees -- I'm just in the very wrong geographical location for my spirit. 

I love the rain.

Monday, July 4, 2016

I love staying in pajamas all day!

Hahahaha!   Just thought I'd throw that one out there.   I do, indeed, love being in pajamas all day!   Don't you?  😆

Monday, February 15, 2016

I Like Flowers

Yes, yes, yes, I know.  It's been awhile since I posted last.  Well, sometimes a lot of stuff happens and it takes a bit to get settled down.  Today, I'm settled enough for another post about likeable stuff!

I like flowers.  They're pretty and fresh.  Carnations are my favorite.  Each week when I go to the grocery store, I buy a little something.  I don't have much money to spend on extras, but they do make me happy.  

I picked up a bouquet from Whole Foods that has lasted over a week now!  It's got lilies, a gerbera daisy, a carnation, a spray of mini carnations, a rose, some small mums and a big spider mum along with some greenery.  Gorgeous!

Yesterday, I picked up some tulips while at Safeway.  They're so cheerful I have to smile!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

I like how time flies (sometimes)

I can't believe that over a year has passed since my last post!  Really?!  I guess time flies when life happens!  In the interim, I've managed end of life care for my elderly father (it's almost a year now since he passed away), had my gall bladder removed, baked endless batches of cookies, have had an ongoing home drama that has yet to be resolved, completed another incredibly busy 60+ hr work week for 5 months budget season, attended a great conference, become involved in several projects both personally and privately and tried to regain balance that feels like it was lost somewhere along the way.

But looking back here is a poignant reminder that no matter what's happening in life, time marches on.  I like that, somehow.  It means bad stuff will eventually fade yet also means that good stuff may be fleeting.  Live, love, laugh (as the pithy meme sign says).  Or, find comfort in Winston Churchill's words about something like "if you find you're going through hell,  keep going."  Or maybe Steve Miller said it best with "Time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping... into the future..."

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I Like the Notion of Learning to Code

I've always been intimidated by coding because, well, programming isn't exactly my strong-point.  I always feel like I'm only sort of understanding all of the slippery syntax.  I know enough pseudo-code to break things down into logical sequences and tasks, enough SQL to take care of my queries in Microsoft SQL Management Studio and enough VB to figure out what macros are doing, and that's pretty much it.  But, as I get older, I find that I want to expand my options both in the technology industry and in professional growth, particularly after completing a Masters in Info Management program and now that I'm looking for career opportunities.  So, when I came across this Code.org promotional video today, it just seemed like providence.  This is just the catalyst to get started!









Saturday, June 1, 2013

I Like My New Vacuum Vroom Vroom!

I gave my somewhat average Hoover vacuum to my Dad as his was a complete piece of junk that couldn't even suck up lint.  So today, my husband and I went out and invested in a new one to replace our old one.
 
 We got this Shark model NV502 (click there for a video that shows all the cool stuff).
Photo from Bed, Bath & Beyond
So far so good; we're impressed with its power and versatility.  Overall, it consistently had very high reviews everywhere we looked.  The negative reviews for it said that it was top heavy and inclined to fall over when using the attachments.  We found that yeah, that can happen, but it's not a big deal because it's also overall lightweight, so big whoop - pick it up if it falls over.  And, if you bother to put it into the included wheeled base cart which turns it into a canister vac, then that takes care of that whole falling over issue, anyway.  Meh, the negatives with this machine are ultimately meaningless, while the positives are truly tangible - you can see how well this machine works immediately with dust, dirt, hair and lint -- and the air filters work great as the exchange vent blows out clean air instead of dust.  It is a lean, mean cleaning machine!

While not cheap, it was considerably less than the high-end models like Dyson and such, and had fabulous reviews everywhere we looked.  We bought it at Bed, Bath & Beyond for $250 in addition to the 20% off coupon, so 200 bones (plus a pile of tax because AZ has ginormous sales tax).  Not too shabby for a vacuum that I think works as well as the $600 ones, though.  Hopefully we won't need to buy another one anytime soon because the expenses really hit this month -- I also need new tires, my 40K tune-up, and car insurance renewals are due. 

That reminds me... I need to go buy a lottery ticket!

Thursday, May 2, 2013

I Like My Tardis Minihub

Hubster got me this awesome Tardis mini hub from www.thinkgeek.com, my most favoritest place to shop aside from Zappos and Amazon.  I have it at work.  Already, one or more of my coworkers has appended it with wicked sticky notes - so far no one will fess up. ..